I cant believe you don’t know your beautiful. (Taken with instagram)
I remember the way she would talk about them. About the colors & sizes.. How you have to rip them just right. Wrapping end over end into small houses, they were always such fragile scraps… Flammable, rip-able scraps, almost like paper hearts, scattered then gathered into glass jars only to be reshaped into folds of hope… Light even. Shinning beacons in a stormy sea. Finally pinching the corners, those houses at last disappearing into tiny paper stars, guides, dots to be connected.. Leading us home.
She is the coolest person i know.shes funny and crazy and cut her lip open on a mac laptop. Yes laugh at her
You keep trying to get inside my head, while i keep trying to lose those words you said, cant you see I’m hanging by a thread?.. To my life what i know ya I’m losing control and my walls are gonna stay. so close its more then i can take, so tired of turning and running away when love just, isn’t … Safe… Your not safe. And thats okay.
Let it go, just let it go, i cant, so how could you. I wasn’t high and i just wish you had believed me, because i don’t trust i don’t feel, all i feel is heart break and an ache that wont fucking go away, its just there and i cant do it. Why did we even start this!, I’m far from papio south now and i still here the things you tell people, that you hate me, and my cracks are getting bigger, i don’t want to shatter again but .. We are glass after all and were made to break. I wrote you the last letter today, i want to send it so bad that I’m afraid its gonna make me look pathetic and annoying and weak, but I’m just in so much pain. I need to hear that you felt at least a little of what i do, why cant i just let you go…